Right before the end of the year I have some ideas, what goals I want to reach and what the next year will bring. Somehow it’s the same every year. Well, just since I was a bit older, of course. I think, as a 4-year-old or as a primary school pupil I wasn’t able for this. Then the end of the year only meant that I had some more toys in my cupboard and that my birthday party will happen. I often had to reschedule it for the next year, because there was so much hustle and bustle in the pre-Christmas period.
There is still hustle, but a different kind. My birthday is still at the same time, but the preparations are different.
And there are already some thoughts.
My year brought many changes to me and that’s fine. I gave up dancing and therefore also some friends. Although I am really wondering today, what actually connected us. Real friendship does not end because you don’t attend the same dancing lessons anymore, right? So probably these have never been true friends! Or maybe we developed into different directions? Maybe this is the explanation.
When I look at this fact now at the end of the year, I notice that I’ve become choosier. Choosier with the selection of true friends. Of course, you have a broad mass of contacts, but true friends are completely different. You won’t find them everywhere, they are just very seldom.
And I believe by now that not everybody is able to be true friend. To be a real friend you first have to be content with yourself. Then there won’t be any jealousy, if the best friend can do something better than you or if you have the cooler party.
Jealousy mustn’t be in a friendship!
And here there is my intent for the coming year. I won’t give any jealous person a part in my life, they are toxic! They poison their surroundings and at the end you will be as dissatisfied as them. That’s a viscious circle, you have to break.
I want to be happy for others, because there will be double joy, if you share it.
And I really feel this when making music. Making music with the right people. My mum showed me a wonderful text excerpt from „Saturday“ by Ian McEwan, which touched my heart. It’s about the perfect moment in music, which does not have to do with skills or with the pressure of musical perfection, but with friendship and love.
„This is when they give us a glimpse of what we might be, of our best selves, and of an impossible world in which you give everything you have to others, but lose nothing of yourself. Out in the real world there exist detailed plans, visionary projects for peaceable realms, all conflicts resolved, happiness for everyone, for ever – mirages for which people are prepared to die and kill. Christ’s kingdom on earth, the workers‘ paradise, the ideal Islamic state. But only in music, and only on rare occasions, does the curtain actually lift on this dream of community, and it’s tantalisingly conjured, before fading away with the last notes.„
Some day I also want to describe my thoughts in such beautiful words. That is no intent for the next year, because for this I will need a bit more time maybe, but I want to become better for each year.
It’s propably a „more-years-intent“, or is it a aim for life? Oh, no, not with fifteen years. right?
We are already here to talk about music, so I remember an article. My parents think our generation is boring, do you remember this post? Well, so they had too much fun, to present me this article about this topic on welt.de.
Guys, we have to do something, somebody is believing, could change this general monotony! I would be very interested on where he surfed through the web and where he found these hopes. Maybe here at frischgelesen.de. Haha… 🙂
These were some good intents I think, but for sure not the last ones. Oh, and I forgot a very important decision. So far I only planned a stay for three months in England, but now it is finally decided:
If I go, I will stay for a whole year in England! Either right or not at all! I will keep you in the loop.